Ive been having those urges again… those choatic urges I feel no one speaks on. I feel like harming myself, judging others, doing heroin and cocaine till a week has passed and Ive barely eaten. I want to feel that choatics energy that comes with being totally moral free, no compass. Just ego and desire reigning free.

Alas, I am happy to have the discipline to control these now, having lived all these desires out before 17. Feel, paint about it, and continue on.

I Think This Compass Is Broken
18”x24”
March 2022