An Angel placed in a realm unlike any other. Contained in a meat suit, Unknown of their True Being, tasked with love unconditionally. This suit serves many a purpose but the constant savage erosion from the lack of humanity has toughed the skin to a shell. A shell meant to be broken and rebirthed, changed and reshaped. Unknown to the wearer the Self begins to Split, enveloping personalities like a sponge. A sponge with growing bones, newfound Understanding, and FEELING. I CAN FEEL EVERYTHING. IM ALIVE. It hurts, everything hurts. The pain unbearing, pain killers, weed, cocaine, heroin, mushrooms, pills and acid were mixed in various concoctions for numbness. I need not feel anything in a world so violent. There is no worth here. I see no point. Death is only option. I can return to my angelic self… I try. Upon return to this planet I come with Sacred Understanding. In the new ViewPoint I see Love. I see mySelf, I know my True Being. Accepting this, I am a tornado looking to Understand this worlds connectors. Overindulgent with sex, drugs, people, emotions, love, lust, care I experience Mania. The Blessed Curse has begun. I See, I Love, I Care, far beyond this worlds Understandi g. Stuck with this State of Mania, it become the Blessed Curse in which I revert to processing with numbing connections. And now it fades. Im Faded… too Faded…shit wrong time, this world is “ending.” too Faded and I can See now. So much violence, confusion starts, why cant they Love as I. I cant keep Crying to Contain Chaos. We are killing Sacred Life. We must do something. but I am but only one against an entity. I can do only what this Suit allows. I must create. I must share positive thoughts, good deeds. But how when they are ill receieved. Fuck, why try. This Cursed Blessing shall not get me to fixing this world. Nothing to fix I must just Love. Get beaten, be the Phoenix I have to come to realize I have become, rise again. LOVE AGAIN. I AM A HOPEFUL. I See the Beauty, the Violence, The Change, the pain, The connections. i have found mySelf, I know my True Being. But when will they FEEL me?